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My life mission of the moment, that is. I don’t think I have enough hubris, right now, to think that this life mission will always be my life mission. (Though honestly, I can only imagine it being similar.)

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by Megan M. on December 29, 2009 · View Comments (Blog) | email me

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by Megan M. on December 24, 2009 · View Comments (Blog) | email me

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by Megan M. on December 12, 2009 · View Comments (Blog) | email me

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by Megan M. on December 11, 2009 · View Comments (Blog) | email me

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by Megan M. on December 9, 2009 · View Comments (Blog) | email me

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